A quote from Pastor, "Hands raised up, face lifted up with tears rolling down our cheeks in awe of he glory of our God". I believe this is perhaps the epitome of worship and love for God, and im so happy to know that i've been doing all the right things every week! Once again, service in heart of god church has not failed me at all. I really felt the presence of God coming down today during worship, especially during the song desperate people, within 5 sec of the chorus, i somehow started to tear crazily. And incredibly, the tears did not come down slowly, but instead caught me totally by surprised and overflowed like mad. That is the power and wonder that comes from the God that i serve and live my life for! And right at the very moment a flashback of all my previous sins came into my mind, and boy, was it alot of very sticky sins in my life! And coincidentally or maybe even pre-arranged by god, Pastor preached about overcoming sins in our lives! How very apt! And right now, im so thankful that I can be made sinless because of a scapegoat which has redeemed our lives. All i have to do is to take a step foward and touch his outstretched hands, and from Luke 5:13, God is willing to forgive all our sins!
And last week after building fund CG, i somehow started to cry also during the worship song towards the ending. After you realise how much Jesus has done for us, and when you start to yearn and reach out to him and call out his name, the holy spirit will walk up to you and touch your hand and heart, and an uncontrollable presence will fall on you, leaving you to tear helplessly. Last week i received revelations on obtaining the spirit, soul and heart of giving. And for this entire week, I had ZERO worries about not being able to fulfil building fund! Before CG on building fund, I dare say i was completely flustered and lost, because the amount i pledged was just not fulfillable with my current income. But now after CG on building fund, im completely calm and peaceful. Because i know that as long as i walk this earth with faith in the Son of God, nothing can stop me, for if christ is for me, who can be against me! Im really amazed and in awe at how peaceful i felt the past week, and this is definitely fuel to keep the fire in my heart burning for Christ!
Made a trip this morning down to little india for squadron heritage tour on the practices of indians. One of it was to visit the hindu temple along the road. I walked in with a little prayer to God, for him to give me strength to stand firm and strong in the temple. The number of idols they have all over the entire temple is just incredible, and the very first thing that came to my head was that they broke one of the most basic commandment already. I realised that they have rather logical stories and explanations behind each statue they have, and i will respect their religion. But during the entire time, i know my God is and will always be the greatest.
Im so touched by John 19:28-30. Jesus knew that everything written in the scriptures would happen, and before he died, he still took the trouble to fulfil one more thing on the cross; the ritual needed to be carried out so that the entire process of forgiveness and salvation can happen to man! He is the messiah!
Yay i finally decided on ministry, lights ministry is where im currently headed! But still not confirm though. Had dinner with Dl4+ Jian ming. Zhilin brought me to headoffice for a tour to see the leaders of the church at work last week. And i said hi to a few of the leaders, including jianming, and he totally forgot about me today! Argh. Thats the problem with seeing so many people everyday. You lose the personal touch. But then again, i guess important people have every reason to accidentally forget other less important people. The Jianming i saw in headoffice was someone whom i would never have thought of wanting to talk to. He looked so stern,busy and important in the office, it was almost similar to trying to approach an officer to chillax with. But well, i guess hes a pretty nice guy after all! I strongly believe Zhilin is the one who will be bringing me closer to the leaders in the church. John, Peijun, Zhilin. I cant lose any one of these leaders.
And i didnt know who Bruno Mars was and what Just the way you are sounded like until today! I guess theres really a need to bridge the gap between the young and the old!
Sunday, October 31, 2010
Building positive energy.
Friday
Had driving lesson in the morning again, and for the 2nd time in the same week, i woke up late! This time i woke up at 8.28am when the lesson was supposed to start at 8.30am. Terrible terrible. Cannot be late liao. First lesson was horrible horrible horrible to the max. Got scolded like crazy by that same irritating instructor again. The thing about having different driving instructors each time is that they all want the learner to adapt to their style, so when each instructor demands for different standards, it becomes so painful to learn. Luckily for my second lesson, i had perhaps a most inspiring and motivating old man instructor. He told me if i kept up this standard and dont do major silly mistakes, i will do v well for my tp! And i personally felt that i really drove very smoothly for the 2nd lesson.
And all these while i thought i could perform better under stress and pressure. But now, I think i respond even better to a positive teaching and positive learning experience. I need to have lots and lots of encouragement and love during my learning. If i like what im learning and hearing, i will be absorbing and soaking at an unstoppable pace. And after recent events, i also found out that i have very very low self esteem. Its so low that my confidence can be shakened even by the slightest nudge. Thats exactly what happens when you become too open to corrections and faults. You see your faults too clearly everyday, you realise that you can never be perfect, or even to the extent of appearing fine. You just hear more and more faults everyday about yourself, you realise how imperfect and flawed you are actually. These words which could have been spoken with a genuine concern and purpose for a better change become words that are forever etched in his head. He can never forget his flaws again. And this is perhaps the greatest smasher of self esteem; when you cant even walk on this earth confidently about yourself. The ugly thoughts about yourself never ends. It is tragic but true. And that is why recently i've been trying to adopt a 'speaking life to others' attitude; give everyone lots of encouragement and confidence! Its perhaps the best medicine to make someone alive and confident again. But at the same time, i only speak what i see is true, and i strongly believe that all of us will live better knowing that we have at least 1 good trait which others appreciate, rather than having 999 bad traits which we need to change to become a better person.
Had driving lesson in the morning again, and for the 2nd time in the same week, i woke up late! This time i woke up at 8.28am when the lesson was supposed to start at 8.30am. Terrible terrible. Cannot be late liao. First lesson was horrible horrible horrible to the max. Got scolded like crazy by that same irritating instructor again. The thing about having different driving instructors each time is that they all want the learner to adapt to their style, so when each instructor demands for different standards, it becomes so painful to learn. Luckily for my second lesson, i had perhaps a most inspiring and motivating old man instructor. He told me if i kept up this standard and dont do major silly mistakes, i will do v well for my tp! And i personally felt that i really drove very smoothly for the 2nd lesson.
And all these while i thought i could perform better under stress and pressure. But now, I think i respond even better to a positive teaching and positive learning experience. I need to have lots and lots of encouragement and love during my learning. If i like what im learning and hearing, i will be absorbing and soaking at an unstoppable pace. And after recent events, i also found out that i have very very low self esteem. Its so low that my confidence can be shakened even by the slightest nudge. Thats exactly what happens when you become too open to corrections and faults. You see your faults too clearly everyday, you realise that you can never be perfect, or even to the extent of appearing fine. You just hear more and more faults everyday about yourself, you realise how imperfect and flawed you are actually. These words which could have been spoken with a genuine concern and purpose for a better change become words that are forever etched in his head. He can never forget his flaws again. And this is perhaps the greatest smasher of self esteem; when you cant even walk on this earth confidently about yourself. The ugly thoughts about yourself never ends. It is tragic but true. And that is why recently i've been trying to adopt a 'speaking life to others' attitude; give everyone lots of encouragement and confidence! Its perhaps the best medicine to make someone alive and confident again. But at the same time, i only speak what i see is true, and i strongly believe that all of us will live better knowing that we have at least 1 good trait which others appreciate, rather than having 999 bad traits which we need to change to become a better person.
Thursday, October 28, 2010
Life.
Came home at 10.24pm today, and the first thing my mom said to me was, daniel, today come back so early ar!
Today's driving was alright, had that particular instructor i didnt like again. But at least he didnt scream at me the entire time, maybe for about 20min only. Hmm i think im getting rather used to being screamed at lately that im more or less indifferent or even immuned to being scolded alr. Thats good, because it means that my threshold for anger tolerance is getting higher and higher everyday. And one day, i may even smile to the person screaming at me and say thank you v much. That would definitely be what Jesus would have done. But for not, ill just keep everything into my heart and stay silent.
I found out that my bible isnt breeding ants actually, its just mould growing on it because of the right environmental conditions for growth. Moist, humid, dusty and sugary. But it kayy i dont need that bible anymore. i found my MOM's pocket bible hidden in a drawer! Like no wayy. I shall use it temporarily until i buy a studybible after bf. The ancient drawer in my bookshelf also has tons and tons of christian/catholic bibles and storybooks/short stories! Only today did i realise that my aunt bought me so so many bibles and books about jesus and god. I didnt appreciate her then, but now that i know God, i shall spend some time reading them and draw myself closer to God.
Argh im so busy these few days. On weekdays need to juggle intensive driving in morning with work in the afternoon to night. Weekends got svc, class, littleindiatrip, duty, bday celebration, stonerouting, bff planning.
Not forgetting dental, fear of recall and my random guitar practices whenever time permits. Oh man i need to have 30 hours a day for these few weeks.
Ahh. i think im superdupermega fail. i've had at least 10 chances to approach you! But i just couldnt muster up the courage. In the end i could only look at you and sigh to myself and then take the easy way out. This cannot do!
Today's driving was alright, had that particular instructor i didnt like again. But at least he didnt scream at me the entire time, maybe for about 20min only. Hmm i think im getting rather used to being screamed at lately that im more or less indifferent or even immuned to being scolded alr. Thats good, because it means that my threshold for anger tolerance is getting higher and higher everyday. And one day, i may even smile to the person screaming at me and say thank you v much. That would definitely be what Jesus would have done. But for not, ill just keep everything into my heart and stay silent.
I found out that my bible isnt breeding ants actually, its just mould growing on it because of the right environmental conditions for growth. Moist, humid, dusty and sugary. But it kayy i dont need that bible anymore. i found my MOM's pocket bible hidden in a drawer! Like no wayy. I shall use it temporarily until i buy a studybible after bf. The ancient drawer in my bookshelf also has tons and tons of christian/catholic bibles and storybooks/short stories! Only today did i realise that my aunt bought me so so many bibles and books about jesus and god. I didnt appreciate her then, but now that i know God, i shall spend some time reading them and draw myself closer to God.
Argh im so busy these few days. On weekdays need to juggle intensive driving in morning with work in the afternoon to night. Weekends got svc, class, littleindiatrip, duty, bday celebration, stonerouting, bff planning.
Not forgetting dental, fear of recall and my random guitar practices whenever time permits. Oh man i need to have 30 hours a day for these few weeks.
Ahh. i think im superdupermega fail. i've had at least 10 chances to approach you! But i just couldnt muster up the courage. In the end i could only look at you and sigh to myself and then take the easy way out. This cannot do!
Wednesday, October 27, 2010
Hump.
Living a life with trenches is such a pessimistic point of view. I shall be optimistic and view my life as living a life with humps instead.
Had a much much much much betterx99 day today. Felt much more confident and alive. Had driving this morning at 10.20am. I woke up once at 8.00am and i went back to sleep. I woke up again at 10.16am and i almost got a heart attack. i chiong out of house like crazily fast and incredibly, i reached the driving centre at 10.36am. And i even took sbs bus instead of cabbing! Dont ask me how i managed to do it. I had a super cool instuctor today and i felt relaxed and confident. Must be the power of my prayer to god last night.
Ahhh i spilled sweet drink on my bible last weekend, then now my bible got ants(or maggots) breeding inside! disgusting. I wanted to like throw away and use my other bible for now, but i dont think i can ever forgive myself if i did that. For now, i washed my bible with water and removed the white eggs. Hopefully i can use it again when it dries up. Or i'll put it in a plastic bag and keep it in my pillow, and let "Bai's theory of diffusion of knowledge" come into play every night when im sleeping. Im gonna buy a different version of the bible. nkjv! hopefully it doesnt mess up my finance. And I shall buy a study bible after bf season.
Had yet another talk about God with my Dad. And once again i saw his eyes beaming with the glory of God, and this light just shone onto me, and its so soothing, because this light came not only from the glory of God, my spiritual father, but also from my earthly father! Its really superduper cool to see 2 fathers in 1 father! My dad told me something which i felt was really true. People around the world all want to know what its like in heaven, and some portrayed certain images about heaven to everyone else. And expectedly, no one will ever truely believe them, because they know those people havent seen personally seen heaven at all. But someone who died on the cross and was resurrected from the dead three days later went to heaven and back to the earth told everyone what heaven was like. And its so sad that so many people still didnt believe what heaven really is, although this time the descriptions came from a person who has been to heaven and back! Man are weakminded creatures of such little faith and trust. Im definitely gonna lead a life different from a stereotype man on this earth. This life i live, i live by faith in the Son of God, who loved me and gave himself for me.
But one thing that really bothered me was that my dad mentioned something which conflicted what i learnt from pastors. After i heard what he said, it sounded pretty absurd to me. But my dad said that was what his pastor preached, and after i heard it, i got a little worried. I tried to correct him to no avail. I guess i can only pray and leave everything into gods hand, for god's magic to work on my dad. I really hope god will be a guiding light for my dad, and point to him the correct mindset and path to undertake.
I shall talk about healing of a sickness in my life, fellowship and indebtedness for my next posts when i have time!
Had a much much much much betterx99 day today. Felt much more confident and alive. Had driving this morning at 10.20am. I woke up once at 8.00am and i went back to sleep. I woke up again at 10.16am and i almost got a heart attack. i chiong out of house like crazily fast and incredibly, i reached the driving centre at 10.36am. And i even took sbs bus instead of cabbing! Dont ask me how i managed to do it. I had a super cool instuctor today and i felt relaxed and confident. Must be the power of my prayer to god last night.
Ahhh i spilled sweet drink on my bible last weekend, then now my bible got ants(or maggots) breeding inside! disgusting. I wanted to like throw away and use my other bible for now, but i dont think i can ever forgive myself if i did that. For now, i washed my bible with water and removed the white eggs. Hopefully i can use it again when it dries up. Or i'll put it in a plastic bag and keep it in my pillow, and let "Bai's theory of diffusion of knowledge" come into play every night when im sleeping. Im gonna buy a different version of the bible. nkjv! hopefully it doesnt mess up my finance. And I shall buy a study bible after bf season.
Had yet another talk about God with my Dad. And once again i saw his eyes beaming with the glory of God, and this light just shone onto me, and its so soothing, because this light came not only from the glory of God, my spiritual father, but also from my earthly father! Its really superduper cool to see 2 fathers in 1 father! My dad told me something which i felt was really true. People around the world all want to know what its like in heaven, and some portrayed certain images about heaven to everyone else. And expectedly, no one will ever truely believe them, because they know those people havent seen personally seen heaven at all. But someone who died on the cross and was resurrected from the dead three days later went to heaven and back to the earth told everyone what heaven was like. And its so sad that so many people still didnt believe what heaven really is, although this time the descriptions came from a person who has been to heaven and back! Man are weakminded creatures of such little faith and trust. Im definitely gonna lead a life different from a stereotype man on this earth. This life i live, i live by faith in the Son of God, who loved me and gave himself for me.
But one thing that really bothered me was that my dad mentioned something which conflicted what i learnt from pastors. After i heard what he said, it sounded pretty absurd to me. But my dad said that was what his pastor preached, and after i heard it, i got a little worried. I tried to correct him to no avail. I guess i can only pray and leave everything into gods hand, for god's magic to work on my dad. I really hope god will be a guiding light for my dad, and point to him the correct mindset and path to undertake.
I shall talk about healing of a sickness in my life, fellowship and indebtedness for my next posts when i have time!
Tuesday, October 26, 2010
Trench.
Today was a very sad day. Felt so distracted and moodless to do anything properly. I even talked exceptionally little at work today. I think the glory of God is slowly fading away from my life. I cant even feel Christ living in me anymore. And this feeling totally sucks. I feel so separated from the love of God, so separated from his kingdom. The feeling i have now, its just so different. I feel lost and purposeless, upset and weary, drained of any confidence in myself. The fire in my heart is becoming a flickering flame. Its sad but its true. In just one day, im backsliding.. drastically.
I need to bounce back up and regain my strength and confidence! But i know only through christ can i possibly steer back on track in this race for god. And i pray god, that you will come into my life, and put me back on track. Every day i spend without you in my life becomes an awful day, every second i spend without you in my life is a wasted second. Dear lord, fill me up with purpose, flood my life with faith. draw me closer to you as I present my entire self as a living sacrifice to your kingdom. Mould me in your way, and let your glory again shine ever so proudly in my life!
Dear lord, remember the times when i could just call on you and you would appear straightaway to be my guiding light in the decisions i make. Remember the times when your glory shone in my life, and i could walk this earth with authority and victory. Remember the times when you were always there to love me and talk to me whenever i needed you. Remember the times when i felt so alive and free, because i know christ lives in me. Why is it that when i call for you now, i hear nothing but silence? Its really devastating and almost painful, because i know it meant that you havent found refuge in my heart. But believe me god, i will never give up on this race for you. I will forever search for you, even to the end of this time. I am very certain that this time after i find you, im gonna experience you on a whole new level like never before. And this time, I will hold you and grab you so tightly, your place in my heart will forever be unshakened. I will never, never let you go again.
People undivided Lord hear us sing
We are Yours and You are our King
My prayer just now was so very lacking of annointment. I really hope its because i didnt turn on any worship music which made it so.
I need to bounce back up and regain my strength and confidence! But i know only through christ can i possibly steer back on track in this race for god. And i pray god, that you will come into my life, and put me back on track. Every day i spend without you in my life becomes an awful day, every second i spend without you in my life is a wasted second. Dear lord, fill me up with purpose, flood my life with faith. draw me closer to you as I present my entire self as a living sacrifice to your kingdom. Mould me in your way, and let your glory again shine ever so proudly in my life!
Dear lord, remember the times when i could just call on you and you would appear straightaway to be my guiding light in the decisions i make. Remember the times when your glory shone in my life, and i could walk this earth with authority and victory. Remember the times when you were always there to love me and talk to me whenever i needed you. Remember the times when i felt so alive and free, because i know christ lives in me. Why is it that when i call for you now, i hear nothing but silence? Its really devastating and almost painful, because i know it meant that you havent found refuge in my heart. But believe me god, i will never give up on this race for you. I will forever search for you, even to the end of this time. I am very certain that this time after i find you, im gonna experience you on a whole new level like never before. And this time, I will hold you and grab you so tightly, your place in my heart will forever be unshakened. I will never, never let you go again.
People undivided Lord hear us sing
We are Yours and You are our King
My prayer just now was so very lacking of annointment. I really hope its because i didnt turn on any worship music which made it so.
Sunday, October 24, 2010
This world will never win my heart
This world will never win my heart. This world will never win my heart. This world will never win my heart. This world will never win my heart. This world will never win my heart. This world will never win my heart. This world will never win my heart. This world will never win my heart. This world will never win my heart. This world will never win my heart. This world will never win my heart. This world will never win my heart. This world will never win my heart. This world will never win my heart. This world will never win my heart. This world will never win my heart. This world will never win my heart. This world will never win my heart. This world will never win my heart. This world will never win my heart. This world will never win my heart. This world will never win my heart. This world will never win my heart. This world will never win my heart.
So much death in those words.. I dont think i can ever live again. I cant wait to join God in heaven, with his perfect love and perfect judgement, with eternal life.
So much death in those words.. I dont think i can ever live again. I cant wait to join God in heaven, with his perfect love and perfect judgement, with eternal life.
Friday, October 22, 2010
BF Discipline.
Arghhh still no recall yet. im sick of the suspense. Cant they just get it over and done with. bleh. So much for all the inaccurate predictions. But i do hope the prediction that it'll come tomorrow doesnt come true!
For the past 5 days this week, im proud to say i've disciplined myself to spend minimally at base! $0.80 a day. But even with this minimal spending, im still rather flustered over how im gonna manage to save enough. And furthermore lead this kind of fasting lifestyle for the coming months. Its definitely my first time having excess money but thinking twice about spending it. I really hope i can draw strength from God to touch my life. People say, when you acquire a heart of giving, God will come down on you like never before. If theres a time to believe what people say, the time is definitely now. First week of 4 months and im feeling the weariness of saving. I really need him to be alive in me 24/7, and for him to speak life to me whenever i call out to him. The time has come, to stand for all we believe in. I shall continue to walk this path, for i have faith that you will answer my call.
Had another BFF meeting today. Today was incredibly productive for a simple meeting. We're definitely on the right track! Got so much work to do now. And i have no idea how im recce the place when my schedule is like superduper packed. Argh. On the bright side, the entire team is definitely bonding and learning from one another during this project.
Im so happy theres svc tml! and john is coming back! Cant wait to see him and share everything that has happened in the past 3 weeks with him. And i definitely cant wait to worship god beside him! I just hope recall doesnt come tomorrow..
I need a revelation for fellowship and BF. And i really hope it comes quick.
For the past 5 days this week, im proud to say i've disciplined myself to spend minimally at base! $0.80 a day. But even with this minimal spending, im still rather flustered over how im gonna manage to save enough. And furthermore lead this kind of fasting lifestyle for the coming months. Its definitely my first time having excess money but thinking twice about spending it. I really hope i can draw strength from God to touch my life. People say, when you acquire a heart of giving, God will come down on you like never before. If theres a time to believe what people say, the time is definitely now. First week of 4 months and im feeling the weariness of saving. I really need him to be alive in me 24/7, and for him to speak life to me whenever i call out to him. The time has come, to stand for all we believe in. I shall continue to walk this path, for i have faith that you will answer my call.
Had another BFF meeting today. Today was incredibly productive for a simple meeting. We're definitely on the right track! Got so much work to do now. And i have no idea how im recce the place when my schedule is like superduper packed. Argh. On the bright side, the entire team is definitely bonding and learning from one another during this project.
Im so happy theres svc tml! and john is coming back! Cant wait to see him and share everything that has happened in the past 3 weeks with him. And i definitely cant wait to worship god beside him! I just hope recall doesnt come tomorrow..
I need a revelation for fellowship and BF. And i really hope it comes quick.
Wednesday, October 20, 2010
BFF!
For the past few weeks, i've been asking people, "how come you know everyone who you walk past?" And the answer they gave me was, " just know lor, after a while you will automatically know people outside your cg one." And i told god, "how cool it would be if i could know alot of people in church too!"
And today, my first opportunity to fellowshipping with the church came! Amidst all the excitement that im gonna meet new friends, it still feels weird to be part of the organising team for such an important event. I dont feel as confident as im supposed to be, because in the past, almost every one of these events i attend are relatively boring. I really hope i gain strength from god to be able to put in effort to this event and make it a success.
Luke 16:10
Whoever can be trusted with very little can also be trusted with much, and whoever is dishonest with very little will also be dishonest with much.
Whenever i need comfort, i can always take joy to know that the lord my god hears my every single cry and woe, sees my every single action and deed and feel my heart and love for others. And every single prize i forsake on this earth will be replaced with treasures in heaven.
And today, my first opportunity to fellowshipping with the church came! Amidst all the excitement that im gonna meet new friends, it still feels weird to be part of the organising team for such an important event. I dont feel as confident as im supposed to be, because in the past, almost every one of these events i attend are relatively boring. I really hope i gain strength from god to be able to put in effort to this event and make it a success.
Luke 16:10
Whoever can be trusted with very little can also be trusted with much, and whoever is dishonest with very little will also be dishonest with much.
Whenever i need comfort, i can always take joy to know that the lord my god hears my every single cry and woe, sees my every single action and deed and feel my heart and love for others. And every single prize i forsake on this earth will be replaced with treasures in heaven.
Monday, October 18, 2010
Mum's Birthday
Today during dinner, my dad told me that last night, my mom was super upset. because on her birthday, other than a lunch celebration with relatives, no one in my family bothered to write her a card or buy her a present. I feel that im such a wretch. For the past many years, my mom has been constantly giving to the family, giving her youth, time, effort, and worked/studied long hours just so she could provide us with everything we needed. For so long, i've always been wanting to do something for her, but everytime, i always pull back what i wanted to do. Im so disappointing, i have always been taking and taking and have not given back to her at all. Deep down, i really honor and love her. But its just so hard to show my love to her. Not just her, but to my entire family. I think its partly because of the culture in our family, we almost never buy presents for one another even on special occasions, and no one ever says i love you to one another. Its just a silent consensus between every family member that we love one another. Its just so tragic. I have learnt so much from church about giving to others, yet i have not been practicing a thing i've learnt about loving one another. And even more so, to my earthly parents. I have really disappointed and disobeyed God for not honoring my parents. How i wish i could show her the same love i have for God, the same fire and conviction i have towards honoring god!
When i grow up and have a family, im gonna say i love you 100 times a day to each of my family members, and give 100 hugs to each of them everyday. Im gonna make sure speaking life to one another and loving one another becomes a culture in my family, for as pastor how said, i may not have the power to change the generations before me, but i can definitely change my generation and every generation thereafter!
My dad told me my mom wept a tear when she told him how much she wanted us to do something for her. And when i heard it, i was so disappointed with myself. But luckily ALL the men in my family rose up! We immediately decided to buy her a cake, buy her flowers, buy her a gift and to make her a card. And we accomplished everything before she came home! And im so happy to be able to apply cardmakingskillz which i picked up through the many cards i've seen in hogc to make my mom a pretty card! And the best thing was, my mom was SO gracious to say, "better late than never!" One half of me says "im glad that she is happy again", but the other half says "you know you did it largely because you felt guilty, not because you really wanted to surprise and show your love to her." Dear God, i really need to learn to love other people, please teach me how to love others, and make me love them like how i love you.
Lastly, i wrote a verse for her at the back of the card! I hope that one day god will touch her heart at church, for nothing can separate us from the love of god!
1 Corinthians 13:4-7
Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.
When i grow up and have a family, im gonna say i love you 100 times a day to each of my family members, and give 100 hugs to each of them everyday. Im gonna make sure speaking life to one another and loving one another becomes a culture in my family, for as pastor how said, i may not have the power to change the generations before me, but i can definitely change my generation and every generation thereafter!
My dad told me my mom wept a tear when she told him how much she wanted us to do something for her. And when i heard it, i was so disappointed with myself. But luckily ALL the men in my family rose up! We immediately decided to buy her a cake, buy her flowers, buy her a gift and to make her a card. And we accomplished everything before she came home! And im so happy to be able to apply cardmakingskillz which i picked up through the many cards i've seen in hogc to make my mom a pretty card! And the best thing was, my mom was SO gracious to say, "better late than never!" One half of me says "im glad that she is happy again", but the other half says "you know you did it largely because you felt guilty, not because you really wanted to surprise and show your love to her." Dear God, i really need to learn to love other people, please teach me how to love others, and make me love them like how i love you.
Lastly, i wrote a verse for her at the back of the card! I hope that one day god will touch her heart at church, for nothing can separate us from the love of god!
1 Corinthians 13:4-7
Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.
Revelation!! Leaders!
YES!! God is so amazing!! after a whole discussion with pj, i have a revelation!!!
I finally know why i went to church only in easter this year, and why i didnt join bai and desmond. It was to be able to meet john, my spiritual leader! ok let me explain. pj did followup with bai and dessy, but john did followup for me. For months and months, i have been asking myself, and people have been continually asking me, why was it john and not pj who did followup for me. After all, im in her team, and since she did followup for bai and and dessy, its natural that she would do it for me too!
But guess what, God has a plan for ALL of us! I came only in easter, so i could have john as my followup leader!! This way, i could have 2 leaders, john to bring me closer to god, and pj to bring me closer to fellowship! Im so happy and privilege to be john's first followup sheep, because he is just so amazing! and im so thankful to be in pj's team, for she has brought me closer to fellowship!! If i had a choice to choose all over again, i can safely and assurely say, i would want to come to church not earlier, not later but exactly on easter 2010! So i can have 2 wonderful leaders, pj and john! And to think i have been asking bai, why didnt you bring me to church earlier!! I now know the reason, God has a plan for me! He knows that these are the 2 IDEAL and BEST leaders for me, and i love him! And its so true! I just emailed john, and what he replied triggered these thoughts, and pj was the one who enhanced and extended these thoughts! John my spiritual leader, pj my fellowship leader!
Im just so thankful for everything he has done. I have not a SINGLE moment of genuine sadness in my life for the past 19 years! I really wonder how far i will fall when a setback actually comes. But nvm, I can forever take joy to know that the lord my god is there for me, to carry me, protect me and bless me through everything i do! And im living the best years of my life in hogc! Im so excited for whats gonna come in the future. God is going to prosper everyone else even more!!
Romans 8:30 (New King James Version)
30 Moreover whom He predestined, these He also called; whom He called, these He also justified; and whom He justified, these He also glorified.
And i think i know why i have a hereditary blood problem at birth which made me c9l3! Its so that i can have time to serve him during my ns days! And the amazing thing is that, God plans it all so perfectly, for me to end up in hogc on easter 2010 so that i can meet pj and john,+ have lots of free time to serve! I can never thank him enough for all he has done! I love him with all my heart and soul!
I finally know why i went to church only in easter this year, and why i didnt join bai and desmond. It was to be able to meet john, my spiritual leader! ok let me explain. pj did followup with bai and dessy, but john did followup for me. For months and months, i have been asking myself, and people have been continually asking me, why was it john and not pj who did followup for me. After all, im in her team, and since she did followup for bai and and dessy, its natural that she would do it for me too!
But guess what, God has a plan for ALL of us! I came only in easter, so i could have john as my followup leader!! This way, i could have 2 leaders, john to bring me closer to god, and pj to bring me closer to fellowship! Im so happy and privilege to be john's first followup sheep, because he is just so amazing! and im so thankful to be in pj's team, for she has brought me closer to fellowship!! If i had a choice to choose all over again, i can safely and assurely say, i would want to come to church not earlier, not later but exactly on easter 2010! So i can have 2 wonderful leaders, pj and john! And to think i have been asking bai, why didnt you bring me to church earlier!! I now know the reason, God has a plan for me! He knows that these are the 2 IDEAL and BEST leaders for me, and i love him! And its so true! I just emailed john, and what he replied triggered these thoughts, and pj was the one who enhanced and extended these thoughts! John my spiritual leader, pj my fellowship leader!
Im just so thankful for everything he has done. I have not a SINGLE moment of genuine sadness in my life for the past 19 years! I really wonder how far i will fall when a setback actually comes. But nvm, I can forever take joy to know that the lord my god is there for me, to carry me, protect me and bless me through everything i do! And im living the best years of my life in hogc! Im so excited for whats gonna come in the future. God is going to prosper everyone else even more!!
Romans 8:30 (New King James Version)
30 Moreover whom He predestined, these He also called; whom He called, these He also justified; and whom He justified, these He also glorified.
And i think i know why i have a hereditary blood problem at birth which made me c9l3! Its so that i can have time to serve him during my ns days! And the amazing thing is that, God plans it all so perfectly, for me to end up in hogc on easter 2010 so that i can meet pj and john,+ have lots of free time to serve! I can never thank him enough for all he has done! I love him with all my heart and soul!
Building Fund 2010
And as usual, weekend service was amazing! minus a surprise recall to base i got during service from my boss which turned out to be a joke.
Expect the best, prepare for the worst. i just love how this statement can so accurately describe our attitude to adopt in everything we do. Expect the best with faith through god's grace, prepare for the worst as a contingency plan. And im finally beginning to like our pastors more and more!
After doing some very serious math, I found out that i really need to start praying to fulfil my bf pledge, because after counting front and back, once twice thrice, somehow, it seems incredibly difficult to meet my pledge. I think i need to seriously lower my spending to income ratio, and live on a budget amount every week. But no worries, tml a new lifestyle awaits me, i shall skip buying breakfast in base, and limit myself to only 1 packet of 80cents icelemontea a day! God will make me love packed food rations that smell terrible and is impossible to swallow. Luckily my mom volunteered to fully subsidise my transport fares. Thats one huge burden off my spending. I just hope payrise will come soon next mnth. But i know that every seed i sow on the ground, god will replace them, and give me even more seeds to sow, for i have been a faithful farmer to his kingdom. And for all the blessings i have received since birth, i know i can never thank him enough.
Pastor was so right to say that it is our privilege to be part of the team that gave to building fund to build our home. Every bit counts, and when our home is finally built, we can proudly say that we had a hand in building this home! 10 years down the road, even if we gave 100k, 200k, it would have lost all its meaning. Im so excited about the plans pastor has for the church! It is a good plan, and im sure it will succeed. hogc will come down to the world like never before.
Anyway i went for birthday lunch with my mom! She is just so awesome. She spontaneously invited all our relatives to eat with her at some revolving restaurant, and even fully paid for lunch! She has a big heart for all those she love. And i just found out today that my elder bro went to hogc before, like 1-2 years back! i was like, NO WAY! i was so shocked and excited after he told me that! And you know what!!!!! Today the guy that appeared on the screen during marilyns testimony, daniel tay, hes the one that invited my brother to church!!! what a coincidence! the very day i found out my bro went to hogc, i saw the same guy appearing on the screen who brought him to church!! one day i will invite him to church again, so that he can again experience the love of god like how i did!
And i made friends with colin today after meeting him twice at 13th floor boys toilet. I just said hi colin, and he asked me for my name, and i told him we met before previously in this very toilet! He was like. errrrrrrrrrrrr. haha so fun. i shall go to 13th floor boys toilet more often! To add on to pastor lia, amazing things happen not only in 13th floor girls bathroom, but in 13th floor boys bathroom as well!!
And once again i thank you lord for such a wonderful week i had, and thank you for blessing every single day throughout these 19 years of my life. I am able to walk this earth with faith and victory, because i know i got you!
Expect the best, prepare for the worst. i just love how this statement can so accurately describe our attitude to adopt in everything we do. Expect the best with faith through god's grace, prepare for the worst as a contingency plan. And im finally beginning to like our pastors more and more!
After doing some very serious math, I found out that i really need to start praying to fulfil my bf pledge, because after counting front and back, once twice thrice, somehow, it seems incredibly difficult to meet my pledge. I think i need to seriously lower my spending to income ratio, and live on a budget amount every week. But no worries, tml a new lifestyle awaits me, i shall skip buying breakfast in base, and limit myself to only 1 packet of 80cents icelemontea a day! God will make me love packed food rations that smell terrible and is impossible to swallow. Luckily my mom volunteered to fully subsidise my transport fares. Thats one huge burden off my spending. I just hope payrise will come soon next mnth. But i know that every seed i sow on the ground, god will replace them, and give me even more seeds to sow, for i have been a faithful farmer to his kingdom. And for all the blessings i have received since birth, i know i can never thank him enough.
Pastor was so right to say that it is our privilege to be part of the team that gave to building fund to build our home. Every bit counts, and when our home is finally built, we can proudly say that we had a hand in building this home! 10 years down the road, even if we gave 100k, 200k, it would have lost all its meaning. Im so excited about the plans pastor has for the church! It is a good plan, and im sure it will succeed. hogc will come down to the world like never before.
Anyway i went for birthday lunch with my mom! She is just so awesome. She spontaneously invited all our relatives to eat with her at some revolving restaurant, and even fully paid for lunch! She has a big heart for all those she love. And i just found out today that my elder bro went to hogc before, like 1-2 years back! i was like, NO WAY! i was so shocked and excited after he told me that! And you know what!!!!! Today the guy that appeared on the screen during marilyns testimony, daniel tay, hes the one that invited my brother to church!!! what a coincidence! the very day i found out my bro went to hogc, i saw the same guy appearing on the screen who brought him to church!! one day i will invite him to church again, so that he can again experience the love of god like how i did!
And i made friends with colin today after meeting him twice at 13th floor boys toilet. I just said hi colin, and he asked me for my name, and i told him we met before previously in this very toilet! He was like. errrrrrrrrrrrr. haha so fun. i shall go to 13th floor boys toilet more often! To add on to pastor lia, amazing things happen not only in 13th floor girls bathroom, but in 13th floor boys bathroom as well!!
And once again i thank you lord for such a wonderful week i had, and thank you for blessing every single day throughout these 19 years of my life. I am able to walk this earth with faith and victory, because i know i got you!
Saturday, October 16, 2010
Rising up.
im like so shagggggggg now. my eyes are closing and i cant even think straight. i think i used up all my energy during leaders meeting today trying to understand everything. to think just 2hrs+ of thinking can drain ALL my energy now.. I cant believe im so vveak. no wonder i see absolutely no life in every meridian on the train in the mornings.
Had a great day at work today. Although i screwed up pol check, but it kz. at least the mess was salvageable. But it got me worried for a while. Other than that, the entire day at work was quite chillax.
Now leaders meeting!
Its quite amazing how hogc can be so dynamic and grow in such an unorthordox way, surviving as a youth church with an adult zone. I had a few immediate questions during sermon today.
Q1: Why must we get a land of our own, when we know that there is limited space available, and every plot of land we try to get would mean denying another church from getting their home? Why not just sacrifice and give them the land, since it would also mean expanding God's kingdom?
A: Bidding for a land is God's way of telling us which church is annointed and chosen to deserve that certain piece of land. The question was never about which church getting the land, nor whether would there be enough land for all churches to be built. But rather, its a channel for God to tell us who he has chosen to take the baton for the relay race. In such a climate like this, churches are restricted to grow by regulations, but this in fact helps to sharpen God's annointing, for only the spiritually strong will be faithful, and they will hence get an opportunity to establish their home. And whichever church that receives this special annointing of God (ie manage to proliferate even in this climate) will also mean they carry the responsibility to make a difference to christianity.
Q2: Why would Hogc be the special church that holds the annointing of god, and will be the church that will make a difference to the world?
A: A special church does not bring annointing to the people, but the annointing of people makes the church special. Its never about a church standing up amongst the rest, but its about how faithful and strong the people are. There is no who gets annointed or who does not, but how many people get annointed. God gave us a choice whether to receive the annointing, and in hogc, pastors groom people to receive the annointing. And that is why this annointing and love for christ is so strong in hogc, that we have faith that every other christian will choose this path of receiving annointing.
Its not about rising up to change the world literally, but about us being a prototype and role model, and hence allow other churches to learn from us and hence change the world. From hogc's rate of growth and taking into account the birthing of a new generation, pastors know that they are definitely on the right track of adaptation in evangelism and loving others, as they see youths loving god more and more each day. Christians have a onus to fulfil their destiny given to them by God, but for hogc, their destiny includes bringing about an entire revolution that will change the way churches will operate. It will change the concept of evangelism, worship and leadership. For it is our priviledge and honor to be part of hogc as the pioneers of a revolution that is about to begin. Churches all around the world will take a leaf out of our book, and use us as a model to build a dynamic church to meet the new generations. And they will establish themselves as a dynamo for the future generations. Christianity is about to be revolutionised, and people all around the world can then love god even more. The high call of God is for all to hear, but for few to respond, accept and follow.
And i thought i was thinking for god all along. Luckily i have great leaders who are there to correct me!
Lastly, i wanna talk about what pj said. Mobility. How much are you willing to give and let go so that you can be mobile to serve and be there when you need to?
Mobilisation to church activities, for instance, is a mere micro scale of the gravity of needing to be mobile. We need to be able to respond to the call of the church especially when we have a few days of advanced notice already. For if we cannot even respond to a mobilisation to a church meeting, what more to the immediate high call of god? We need to be there and ready to let go of everything to follow god when the time comes.
And also pj's importance and role as a leader. Without her holding the team together, im not sure at all if we can be as commited and convicted to be there to respond to church calls. We need to reduce the load on our leaders by responding, and in turn, grow another leader in our midst. For if we have a team of people who are as responsible as any leader, we will grow to another level of commitment and love.
Thanks everyone, joey, zhilin, eloise, peijun, jasmine and desmond for explaining/trying to explain to me. Esp joey zhilin and eloise for being so patient. I know im rather stubborn to accept what you say at times. Thats cause i cannot understand and cannot fit the pieces together. But once i see the logic behind what you say, then it all comes to light, and i will correct my thinking.
Wow almost 4am. i've been at it for 1hr+ and im so shag. Argh i dont think i can wake up in time to send varian and bai off. Nvm. The lord my god will give me strength to crawl out of my bed and make it to airport at 8am! For i find rest not in sleeping, but in loving.
Goodnight world. Goodmorning destiny!
Had a great day at work today. Although i screwed up pol check, but it kz. at least the mess was salvageable. But it got me worried for a while. Other than that, the entire day at work was quite chillax.
Now leaders meeting!
Its quite amazing how hogc can be so dynamic and grow in such an unorthordox way, surviving as a youth church with an adult zone. I had a few immediate questions during sermon today.
Q1: Why must we get a land of our own, when we know that there is limited space available, and every plot of land we try to get would mean denying another church from getting their home? Why not just sacrifice and give them the land, since it would also mean expanding God's kingdom?
A: Bidding for a land is God's way of telling us which church is annointed and chosen to deserve that certain piece of land. The question was never about which church getting the land, nor whether would there be enough land for all churches to be built. But rather, its a channel for God to tell us who he has chosen to take the baton for the relay race. In such a climate like this, churches are restricted to grow by regulations, but this in fact helps to sharpen God's annointing, for only the spiritually strong will be faithful, and they will hence get an opportunity to establish their home. And whichever church that receives this special annointing of God (ie manage to proliferate even in this climate) will also mean they carry the responsibility to make a difference to christianity.
Q2: Why would Hogc be the special church that holds the annointing of god, and will be the church that will make a difference to the world?
A: A special church does not bring annointing to the people, but the annointing of people makes the church special. Its never about a church standing up amongst the rest, but its about how faithful and strong the people are. There is no who gets annointed or who does not, but how many people get annointed. God gave us a choice whether to receive the annointing, and in hogc, pastors groom people to receive the annointing. And that is why this annointing and love for christ is so strong in hogc, that we have faith that every other christian will choose this path of receiving annointing.
Its not about rising up to change the world literally, but about us being a prototype and role model, and hence allow other churches to learn from us and hence change the world. From hogc's rate of growth and taking into account the birthing of a new generation, pastors know that they are definitely on the right track of adaptation in evangelism and loving others, as they see youths loving god more and more each day. Christians have a onus to fulfil their destiny given to them by God, but for hogc, their destiny includes bringing about an entire revolution that will change the way churches will operate. It will change the concept of evangelism, worship and leadership. For it is our priviledge and honor to be part of hogc as the pioneers of a revolution that is about to begin. Churches all around the world will take a leaf out of our book, and use us as a model to build a dynamic church to meet the new generations. And they will establish themselves as a dynamo for the future generations. Christianity is about to be revolutionised, and people all around the world can then love god even more. The high call of God is for all to hear, but for few to respond, accept and follow.
And i thought i was thinking for god all along. Luckily i have great leaders who are there to correct me!
Lastly, i wanna talk about what pj said. Mobility. How much are you willing to give and let go so that you can be mobile to serve and be there when you need to?
Mobilisation to church activities, for instance, is a mere micro scale of the gravity of needing to be mobile. We need to be able to respond to the call of the church especially when we have a few days of advanced notice already. For if we cannot even respond to a mobilisation to a church meeting, what more to the immediate high call of god? We need to be there and ready to let go of everything to follow god when the time comes.
And also pj's importance and role as a leader. Without her holding the team together, im not sure at all if we can be as commited and convicted to be there to respond to church calls. We need to reduce the load on our leaders by responding, and in turn, grow another leader in our midst. For if we have a team of people who are as responsible as any leader, we will grow to another level of commitment and love.
Thanks everyone, joey, zhilin, eloise, peijun, jasmine and desmond for explaining/trying to explain to me. Esp joey zhilin and eloise for being so patient. I know im rather stubborn to accept what you say at times. Thats cause i cannot understand and cannot fit the pieces together. But once i see the logic behind what you say, then it all comes to light, and i will correct my thinking.
Wow almost 4am. i've been at it for 1hr+ and im so shag. Argh i dont think i can wake up in time to send varian and bai off. Nvm. The lord my god will give me strength to crawl out of my bed and make it to airport at 8am! For i find rest not in sleeping, but in loving.
Goodnight world. Goodmorning destiny!
Wednesday, October 13, 2010
1st Prayer Meeting
had my first prayer meeting with dl4 guys, ie joey, selwyn, jiahock, maurice and ryan. I could really feel the presence of God coming down on us, and once again, the feeling of acension overwhelmed me.
Its great to know that they have a clear objective and purpose in their near future. And its also great to know that they are all slowly becoming more christlike. I pray that each and everyone will draw strength through god, and fulfil their purpose here on earth!
Had Qboard interview today. And once again, i thank god for being my guiding star, for giving me strength confidence to overcome this trial. I know, with christ living in me, i have authority and victory over all things on earth. Nothing can separate us from the love of god, i am fearless!
Somehow, there is a sparkle in the smile of every christian; they practically glow with radiance! There is just so much life in them. This is the power of our God.
Its great to know that they have a clear objective and purpose in their near future. And its also great to know that they are all slowly becoming more christlike. I pray that each and everyone will draw strength through god, and fulfil their purpose here on earth!
Had Qboard interview today. And once again, i thank god for being my guiding star, for giving me strength confidence to overcome this trial. I know, with christ living in me, i have authority and victory over all things on earth. Nothing can separate us from the love of god, i am fearless!
Somehow, there is a sparkle in the smile of every christian; they practically glow with radiance! There is just so much life in them. This is the power of our God.
Tuesday, October 12, 2010
The Beginning.
Eternal life in heaven, abundant life on earth. im beginning to love this phrase more and more!
Today was a great bad day. Panicked abit for parade cos i thought i was running late, but in the end i was actually like 20min+ earlier than reporting time. Yay me, i escaped getting extras cos i was early for parade! Or so i thought. Im quite lazy to say out the entire cabinet issue because i feel its quite absurd. But the thing was, after being threatened with 3 extras, not only was i lazy to fight back for myself, i was rather indifferent and unbothered about getting the extra punishment. Because i know, I walk the earth with authority and victory from christ, what can mere humans do to me?
The one and only thing that made me really sad was that it meant missing 3 services in church. I was really quite sad about it, because i know that the worst thing that could ever happen to me was me being separated from god, for a single weekend, a single hour, even a single second. I pray that he will satisfy my yearning for him, and come down into my life like never before.
Talked to bryan and yongyi a little about christianity and god, and as usual, all the scientific big bang theory and darwins evolution came into the picture; the exact same skeptism and thoughts i had about christianity right at the start. But i believe that one day, man will come to know that their purpose here on earth is more than just living, but about loving.
Ephesians 3:20
Now to him who is able to do immeasurably more than we ask for or imagine, according to his power that is at work within us, to him be glory in the church and in Jesus Christ throughout all generations, for ever and ever! Amen.
A big thank you to all those who wrote the well wishes to zhanyu! Valcheong, Fungqi, Joey(although i had to like vomit blood before i managed to get him to write a message =p), Eugene, Jasmine, Grace, Peijun, Zhenghui, Desmond, Bai, Novel, Zhilin. Zhanyu was v v touched! Thank you all of you for allowing zhanyu to leave this place with a wonderful experience of God's love. Im certain he will gain strength from all your messages to go through these 3 weeks, not forgetting Jesus who will also be his guiding light! Salvation awaits him.
An even bigger mention to bai, zhenghui and peijun for being present there to send zhanyu off! And especially peijun, for she was the one who pulled me away from the devil's grip, the one who brought life to me, the one who harshly reminded me, "Is he your friend??? loving a friend is shown through our actions and efforts too. action speaks louder than words. Jesus won't say He's too lazy to die on the cross for you". And to quote Aaron, "Daniel, daniel, is this what Jesus would have done??" Im just so thankful i have great friends whom i can depend on to defend your fortress and kingdom in these dark hours. Dear lord, we shall fight on with hearts aflamed, forever in the race to your throne!
What a great night, its the first ever time i actually put in some effort to make a card for a friend! And the feeling was definitely overwhelming. And once again, i give even greater praises to God, for never allowing me to separate from his love, and for giving me abundant life on earth. I love you god, and i worship you with all my heart. I will continue to build your kingdom, and the life i live, i live by faith in the Son of God, who loved me and gave himself for me.
And omg, the power of prayer! At 2313, i decided to walk zhanyu to his gathering place, and at 2323, i was like, omg doom liaos. confirm cannot make it for last train liaos. weekday somemore and must take skytrain to T2. And so like i always do when i need help, i prayed to God for a miracle to happen that somehow, the last train leaving airport would be like at 2330+. And by golly, somehow i managed to board the very last train leaving airport! Such miracles when i decide to sacrifice for a friend! I just love the victory i receive from god!
Mark 1:11
And a voice from heaven said, "You are my dearly loved Son, and you bring me great joy."
Today was a great bad day. Panicked abit for parade cos i thought i was running late, but in the end i was actually like 20min+ earlier than reporting time. Yay me, i escaped getting extras cos i was early for parade! Or so i thought. Im quite lazy to say out the entire cabinet issue because i feel its quite absurd. But the thing was, after being threatened with 3 extras, not only was i lazy to fight back for myself, i was rather indifferent and unbothered about getting the extra punishment. Because i know, I walk the earth with authority and victory from christ, what can mere humans do to me?
The one and only thing that made me really sad was that it meant missing 3 services in church. I was really quite sad about it, because i know that the worst thing that could ever happen to me was me being separated from god, for a single weekend, a single hour, even a single second. I pray that he will satisfy my yearning for him, and come down into my life like never before.
Talked to bryan and yongyi a little about christianity and god, and as usual, all the scientific big bang theory and darwins evolution came into the picture; the exact same skeptism and thoughts i had about christianity right at the start. But i believe that one day, man will come to know that their purpose here on earth is more than just living, but about loving.
Ephesians 3:20
Now to him who is able to do immeasurably more than we ask for or imagine, according to his power that is at work within us, to him be glory in the church and in Jesus Christ throughout all generations, for ever and ever! Amen.
A big thank you to all those who wrote the well wishes to zhanyu! Valcheong, Fungqi, Joey(although i had to like vomit blood before i managed to get him to write a message =p), Eugene, Jasmine, Grace, Peijun, Zhenghui, Desmond, Bai, Novel, Zhilin. Zhanyu was v v touched! Thank you all of you for allowing zhanyu to leave this place with a wonderful experience of God's love. Im certain he will gain strength from all your messages to go through these 3 weeks, not forgetting Jesus who will also be his guiding light! Salvation awaits him.
An even bigger mention to bai, zhenghui and peijun for being present there to send zhanyu off! And especially peijun, for she was the one who pulled me away from the devil's grip, the one who brought life to me, the one who harshly reminded me, "Is he your friend??? loving a friend is shown through our actions and efforts too. action speaks louder than words. Jesus won't say He's too lazy to die on the cross for you". And to quote Aaron, "Daniel, daniel, is this what Jesus would have done??" Im just so thankful i have great friends whom i can depend on to defend your fortress and kingdom in these dark hours. Dear lord, we shall fight on with hearts aflamed, forever in the race to your throne!
What a great night, its the first ever time i actually put in some effort to make a card for a friend! And the feeling was definitely overwhelming. And once again, i give even greater praises to God, for never allowing me to separate from his love, and for giving me abundant life on earth. I love you god, and i worship you with all my heart. I will continue to build your kingdom, and the life i live, i live by faith in the Son of God, who loved me and gave himself for me.
And omg, the power of prayer! At 2313, i decided to walk zhanyu to his gathering place, and at 2323, i was like, omg doom liaos. confirm cannot make it for last train liaos. weekday somemore and must take skytrain to T2. And so like i always do when i need help, i prayed to God for a miracle to happen that somehow, the last train leaving airport would be like at 2330+. And by golly, somehow i managed to board the very last train leaving airport! Such miracles when i decide to sacrifice for a friend! I just love the victory i receive from god!
Mark 1:11
And a voice from heaven said, "You are my dearly loved Son, and you bring me great joy."
Monday, October 11, 2010
Tithings.
Woke up at 9, 10, 11, 12 and finally at 1, i decided to climb out of my bed because i think i shouldnt sleep anymore. I finally ate lunch on a sunday morning with my family after missing sunday lunch with them for the past weeks. But after i told them i wasnt eating dinner at home, somehow i could feel yet another sense of disappointment in them. I really want to honor them more, but i also wanna spend my weekends outside of home. I shall try to be nicer to them from now on, and for starters, i shall buy my mom a present for her birthday next sunday!
Service was great. God's house is always filled with peace, joy, laughter, smiles. Brought chew to church today, and i could see him blending into the people. I believe that v soon, he will realise how much god loves us, and nothing can separate us from god. I pray that God will guide him in the 3 weeks to come, and put a yearning for God in his heart, and that will be his ignition spark to light the fire in his heart and run the race for god.
Today, i learnt that sinning is actually not only doing bad things. Sinning is actually breaking god's heart, not following god's words. Once we stop following God's instructions, we sin. Varian told me that he thinks that being righteous does not necessarily bring prosperity, because if a person is righteous and lazy, hes not gonna prosper at all. but someone who works hard will definitely be prosperous. But i think that we prosper only when we do not sin ie follow god's words, and once we do not sin, we will somehow be righteous and godlike, and this is what prospers us. Being lazy is in fact not a teaching of god, and hence it translates to sinning. Thus when we are lazy, we sin, and that is why we dont prosper. So actually i just answered varians question! And to think i never believed that we can learn through teaching!
2 Thessalonians 3:10
For even if we were with you, we would give you this command: If anyone is not willing to work, let him not eat.
Proverbs 13:4
The soul of the sluggard craves and gets nothing, while the soul of the diligent is richly supplied.
Pay day is here! I shall give my first ever tithing to God. I want god to know that i am obedient to him and i love him. I want him to know that he can trust me, and i want him to choose me in my golden years to give back to the kingdom of god, for everything i have, it belongs not to me, but to the lord our god. All i ask for is for him to come into my life, and give me wisdom through christ, so i can live a better person, a better life.
Went out with chew zhilin and peijun at night to eat daohuay. That is what i call doing nothing and pure chilling. We should do this more often. Because its the most energy-conserving activity which is actually fun! I think thats probably why i joined co right at the start. Just sit on the chair and nua the whole practice. Best thing ever.
Now I need someone to answer me this question. How far do you agree that the bible was not tampered during the roman empire?
Service was great. God's house is always filled with peace, joy, laughter, smiles. Brought chew to church today, and i could see him blending into the people. I believe that v soon, he will realise how much god loves us, and nothing can separate us from god. I pray that God will guide him in the 3 weeks to come, and put a yearning for God in his heart, and that will be his ignition spark to light the fire in his heart and run the race for god.
Today, i learnt that sinning is actually not only doing bad things. Sinning is actually breaking god's heart, not following god's words. Once we stop following God's instructions, we sin. Varian told me that he thinks that being righteous does not necessarily bring prosperity, because if a person is righteous and lazy, hes not gonna prosper at all. but someone who works hard will definitely be prosperous. But i think that we prosper only when we do not sin ie follow god's words, and once we do not sin, we will somehow be righteous and godlike, and this is what prospers us. Being lazy is in fact not a teaching of god, and hence it translates to sinning. Thus when we are lazy, we sin, and that is why we dont prosper. So actually i just answered varians question! And to think i never believed that we can learn through teaching!
2 Thessalonians 3:10
For even if we were with you, we would give you this command: If anyone is not willing to work, let him not eat.
Proverbs 13:4
The soul of the sluggard craves and gets nothing, while the soul of the diligent is richly supplied.
Pay day is here! I shall give my first ever tithing to God. I want god to know that i am obedient to him and i love him. I want him to know that he can trust me, and i want him to choose me in my golden years to give back to the kingdom of god, for everything i have, it belongs not to me, but to the lord our god. All i ask for is for him to come into my life, and give me wisdom through christ, so i can live a better person, a better life.
Went out with chew zhilin and peijun at night to eat daohuay. That is what i call doing nothing and pure chilling. We should do this more often. Because its the most energy-conserving activity which is actually fun! I think thats probably why i joined co right at the start. Just sit on the chair and nua the whole practice. Best thing ever.
Now I need someone to answer me this question. How far do you agree that the bible was not tampered during the roman empire?
Sunday, October 10, 2010
Disorganised thoughts.
Dear lord, what is a thousand dollars compared to a life saved and brought past the gates of heavens? Money is but earthly wealth, but bringing eternal life to another, that is true kingdom building. It is giving what you value most to christ, and certainly for me, its giving my best years of my life and giving my best friends to christ!
Dear lord, for the first time, i am actually assured and confident that it is you who spoke to me today. I can finally listen to your word now! Its not a voice i hear, but instead, a chain of thoughts planted in my mind. You speak to me through the presence of the holy spirit, you indirectly tell me what i should do and what decisions i should make. I can now walk this earth with victory and authority in everything i do, for i know that i have a guiding star, a guiding star which makes me fearless, which frees me from the chains of unbelievers.
Dear lord, somehow, i think you entered my life right in the beginning of my life. Saving, a lesson taught to me years back by you. I love my foundation given to me by god. I now know when exactly did god first stepped into my life, and that was the very day i was birthed from my earthly parents. Oh how much i honor them when i miss them. But why daniel, do you still not practice what you preach? Its just so tragic that the devil can so easily take over you through your stronghold of bitterness. Daniel Daniel, when will you ever learn to say no, say no to the devils?!
God knows who his children are, for nobody but the lord our god will judge his own people.
The hands of fellowship, do they reach only to those already saved? Or does it reach to those who are yet to be saved? Attachments to a church, what is the purpose of it? This church must survive, because this church is where i first met god, it holds sentimental value, and perhaps the most appealing place to bring salvation to others. This church must survive because this is a fortress of god to fight the devil. We cannot lose this stronghold; for every little channel we have to reach to man, we cannot forsake and forgo. It's not about hogc, its about saving god's kingdom.
You of little faith! God provides, God prospers. Our lord, our god shall stand tall and proud. His glory will shine across all the earth, and his kingdom can only grow bigger and ever stronger!
And lord, once again, my promise to you!
Dear lord, for the first time, i am actually assured and confident that it is you who spoke to me today. I can finally listen to your word now! Its not a voice i hear, but instead, a chain of thoughts planted in my mind. You speak to me through the presence of the holy spirit, you indirectly tell me what i should do and what decisions i should make. I can now walk this earth with victory and authority in everything i do, for i know that i have a guiding star, a guiding star which makes me fearless, which frees me from the chains of unbelievers.
Dear lord, somehow, i think you entered my life right in the beginning of my life. Saving, a lesson taught to me years back by you. I love my foundation given to me by god. I now know when exactly did god first stepped into my life, and that was the very day i was birthed from my earthly parents. Oh how much i honor them when i miss them. But why daniel, do you still not practice what you preach? Its just so tragic that the devil can so easily take over you through your stronghold of bitterness. Daniel Daniel, when will you ever learn to say no, say no to the devils?!
God knows who his children are, for nobody but the lord our god will judge his own people.
The hands of fellowship, do they reach only to those already saved? Or does it reach to those who are yet to be saved? Attachments to a church, what is the purpose of it? This church must survive, because this church is where i first met god, it holds sentimental value, and perhaps the most appealing place to bring salvation to others. This church must survive because this is a fortress of god to fight the devil. We cannot lose this stronghold; for every little channel we have to reach to man, we cannot forsake and forgo. It's not about hogc, its about saving god's kingdom.
You of little faith! God provides, God prospers. Our lord, our god shall stand tall and proud. His glory will shine across all the earth, and his kingdom can only grow bigger and ever stronger!
And lord, once again, my promise to you!
Saturday, October 9, 2010
Terrible day.
Sigh.. sometimes i just ask myself, why did bai and dessy pull me into church. They have just brought me to a never ending path of addiction for christ. And im constantly reminded to be christlike, to build the kingdom of god. My lifestyle has totally been changed. Everything i do, i do it with faith in God, and i can feel the glory of my prime slowly coming into my life. I have turned down so many outings with people outside church, and i try to be present for every church event. I blame all these on our real and living god. I just can't help, but give all i have to build his kingdom, because i know what i will have at the end of the day is not earthly wealth, but boundless treasures in heaven. I have faith, that each and everything i give to build his kingdom, our father in heaven sees it all, and with a little prayer from us, we will gain godly strength to race with an untamed flame to his throne in heaven.
How much more joy i would have if i was never introduced to god. I would spend my sat's and sun's going out comfortably with everyone else i know, spending quality time with my parents, watching all my favourite movies and dramas, playing my favourite games and sports. But this is the problem with our god. Nothing can separate us from his love. He is just so real and alive. And he makes me so sick, sick and tired of building his kingdom. Yet i know, this is in fact living life itself.
How much more joy i would have if i was never introduced to god. I would spend my sat's and sun's going out comfortably with everyone else i know, spending quality time with my parents, watching all my favourite movies and dramas, playing my favourite games and sports. But this is the problem with our god. Nothing can separate us from his love. He is just so real and alive. And he makes me so sick, sick and tired of building his kingdom. Yet i know, this is in fact living life itself.
Wednesday, October 6, 2010
Evangelism.
Dear lord! i have taken a leap of faith, and invited perhaps the most uninvitable people i know to church. i pray that you give me strength, and i pray that u soften their hearts and let them experience your love. i believe that underneath this cold and hard exterior lies a soft and yielding heart. please, touch them with your love, grow the idea of church into reality, and let it be one of the best decisions they have ever made.
Pj:
(Ester 4:14 NIV) "For if you remain silent at this time, relief and deliverance for the Jews will arise from another place, but you and your father's family will perish. And who knows but that you have come to royal position for such a time as this?"
When we receive today what we are hoping for tomorow, we live with the assurance that we already have those things we dream of. This makes us walk and talk and plan and prepare a certain way. We live with a certainty of things others cannot see. We laught at how impossible it looks, because we know within that we already have the reality.
Pj:
(Ester 4:14 NIV) "For if you remain silent at this time, relief and deliverance for the Jews will arise from another place, but you and your father's family will perish. And who knows but that you have come to royal position for such a time as this?"
When we receive today what we are hoping for tomorow, we live with the assurance that we already have those things we dream of. This makes us walk and talk and plan and prepare a certain way. We live with a certainty of things others cannot see. We laught at how impossible it looks, because we know within that we already have the reality.
Tuesday, October 5, 2010
IM ON FIRE!!
JESUS!!! I CANT WAIT TO BE WITH YOU IN HEAVEN!! I LOVE YOU!
dear god, even i can see the change in myself. im growing to love you more and more! im just madly in love with you. you are everything to me. you have the perfect qualities i would yearn anyone to have, perfect love, understanding, replies, attention, guidance, glory! how can anyone be so PERFECT!! I am made complete with christ in me. your presence is like ecstasy to me, and im getting increasingly addicted to you day by day. dear lord! thank you for choosing me in my golden years! it is my highest privilege and honor to serve and love you. i will make a difference to your kingdom. i can feel the happiness and peace, i can feel you waiting for me in heaven, to welcome me. i am fearless, for i walk this earth in your name. nothing can defeat me!
Shine your light and, let the whole earth see!
We're singing, for the glory, of our risen king, Jesus!
dear god, even i can see the change in myself. im growing to love you more and more! im just madly in love with you. you are everything to me. you have the perfect qualities i would yearn anyone to have, perfect love, understanding, replies, attention, guidance, glory! how can anyone be so PERFECT!! I am made complete with christ in me. your presence is like ecstasy to me, and im getting increasingly addicted to you day by day. dear lord! thank you for choosing me in my golden years! it is my highest privilege and honor to serve and love you. i will make a difference to your kingdom. i can feel the happiness and peace, i can feel you waiting for me in heaven, to welcome me. i am fearless, for i walk this earth in your name. nothing can defeat me!
Shine your light and, let the whole earth see!
We're singing, for the glory, of our risen king, Jesus!
Sunday, October 3, 2010
A disturbing day.
Sigh. today has been such a disturbing day. Other than during praise, worship and praying to god dur svc, i didnt feel happy at all. i left my house for svc in the morning, only to meet my parents downstairs who came back from marketing. they asked me if i ate lunch already, and i said no. and they asked me if i was eating dinner later tonight, and i said no to them again. i could see such disappointment on their faces although they didnt say anything to me.
Dear parents, as much as i want to honor you, I really feel that i wanna spend my precious weekends in church. Its not that i dont want to spend time at home, but i really gain much more joy at church. I know how much you have done for me, and i know that i am forever indebted to you. But i think that sometimes, you just gotta let go of your reins on me. I am a servant of a greater god out there, and i cannot serve two masters. Dear lord, i pray that you will let my parents understand that my saturdays and sundays will forever be spent in the house of god. When bmt comes, ill have even less time to spend with them. Please enlighten them that i am going to church to learn about the bible, about christlikeness, about being a better person.
I felt incredibly guilty after svc about making them upset, and i felt completely disturbed throughout the evening. Much to my reluctance, I think it was more of guilt than anything else that made me call back home to tell them i will eat dinner with them at home. I wanted so much to stay in church after svc! But I know that one day, i will look back at my life and tell myself, daniel daniel, you should have spent more time with your parents, and regret not spending enough time with them after they're gone. Dear god, tell me, how much must we honor our parents? does it go only to the extent of not making them upset, or do we have to forsake our own joy for them?
And Dear god, i wanna tithe and give to bf to build and expand your kingdom. God, why is it that you never speak to me yourself, but instead, always send your children to pass me your message? I feel Christ living in me, all i have to do is to call out to him, and i can feel him living in me. But why does he never speak, but only listen and listen to what i say, and then answer ALL my questions through his miraculous ways? I long to hear your word through your voice, not other people's voice. Dear god, i pray that you will choose me in my golden years, bless me with the ability to hear your voice. Dear lord, when you feel i am ready, please use me through christ to change the world!
Dear parents, as much as i want to honor you, I really feel that i wanna spend my precious weekends in church. Its not that i dont want to spend time at home, but i really gain much more joy at church. I know how much you have done for me, and i know that i am forever indebted to you. But i think that sometimes, you just gotta let go of your reins on me. I am a servant of a greater god out there, and i cannot serve two masters. Dear lord, i pray that you will let my parents understand that my saturdays and sundays will forever be spent in the house of god. When bmt comes, ill have even less time to spend with them. Please enlighten them that i am going to church to learn about the bible, about christlikeness, about being a better person.
I felt incredibly guilty after svc about making them upset, and i felt completely disturbed throughout the evening. Much to my reluctance, I think it was more of guilt than anything else that made me call back home to tell them i will eat dinner with them at home. I wanted so much to stay in church after svc! But I know that one day, i will look back at my life and tell myself, daniel daniel, you should have spent more time with your parents, and regret not spending enough time with them after they're gone. Dear god, tell me, how much must we honor our parents? does it go only to the extent of not making them upset, or do we have to forsake our own joy for them?
And Dear god, i wanna tithe and give to bf to build and expand your kingdom. God, why is it that you never speak to me yourself, but instead, always send your children to pass me your message? I feel Christ living in me, all i have to do is to call out to him, and i can feel him living in me. But why does he never speak, but only listen and listen to what i say, and then answer ALL my questions through his miraculous ways? I long to hear your word through your voice, not other people's voice. Dear god, i pray that you will choose me in my golden years, bless me with the ability to hear your voice. Dear lord, when you feel i am ready, please use me through christ to change the world!
Pre-planned Journey
Friday
Had such a rough day at work today. I was so disappointed with myself for having a silent buaysongness in my heart towards a few incidents at work. To make matters worse, I was supposed to go out and eat dinner with my connect group!! I was like waiting for a reply to come to tell me what time they meeting for dinner. but the reply came so so late. then i was starving at home cos sfi lunch was fail ttm. so the entire day i didnt really eat much. I admit, i was rather bitter about the situation. because my mom was like, you sure u dont want eat dinner.. then im like yeah im gonna eat out. so i waited and waited. in the end i was like, forget it. ill just starve.
BUT, God works in wonderful ways! At 9.30pm, i met john and we went to meet dom at mosburger. and so qiao, our followup was on Getting Rid of Strongholds in our Lives! and one of the strongholds was bitterness! I think its totally planned by god that i received the earlier bitterness, so that i could tackle this stronghold in followup! So dom and john taught me that i need to overcome these strongholds in life, because they are created by the devil, and they make us sin. I will overcome everyone of this stronghold through Jesus, for God is faithful and just in forgiving our sins! I just wanna thank God for coming into my life, and changing me so that i can draw closer to him, and feel his love and peace.
Saturday
im beginning to like pastor how more and more. today's talk about tithe was just great. just when i got my first credit card like just 2 days ago, and made my first credit card payment today, here came a sermon that talked about credit card! Somehow, i just feel that my walk with god has been a pre-planned journey, everything that happened in my life, theres always a sermon/followup to explain and to correct me. Isnt it just amazing. I believe god will use me for a much greater purpose, and i will be so happy to answer his calling when the time comes! I will never be a slave to credit and debit, for i have only one true master, and that is jesus christ! ONELOVE,ONEGOD!
im so glad chew enjoyed his time at church today. i can feel the seed in him sprouting, and the time has come for another life to be changed!
I shall take a leap of faith and learn to tithe, because tithing is an indication that we can have self control over our earthly appetites, and it also serves as a reminder that what we should be seeking are the boundless treasures in heaven, and to cling onto earthly possessions. Dear god, please mould me in your ways, let your glory shine in my life.
Had such a rough day at work today. I was so disappointed with myself for having a silent buaysongness in my heart towards a few incidents at work. To make matters worse, I was supposed to go out and eat dinner with my connect group!! I was like waiting for a reply to come to tell me what time they meeting for dinner. but the reply came so so late. then i was starving at home cos sfi lunch was fail ttm. so the entire day i didnt really eat much. I admit, i was rather bitter about the situation. because my mom was like, you sure u dont want eat dinner.. then im like yeah im gonna eat out. so i waited and waited. in the end i was like, forget it. ill just starve.
BUT, God works in wonderful ways! At 9.30pm, i met john and we went to meet dom at mosburger. and so qiao, our followup was on Getting Rid of Strongholds in our Lives! and one of the strongholds was bitterness! I think its totally planned by god that i received the earlier bitterness, so that i could tackle this stronghold in followup! So dom and john taught me that i need to overcome these strongholds in life, because they are created by the devil, and they make us sin. I will overcome everyone of this stronghold through Jesus, for God is faithful and just in forgiving our sins! I just wanna thank God for coming into my life, and changing me so that i can draw closer to him, and feel his love and peace.
Saturday
im beginning to like pastor how more and more. today's talk about tithe was just great. just when i got my first credit card like just 2 days ago, and made my first credit card payment today, here came a sermon that talked about credit card! Somehow, i just feel that my walk with god has been a pre-planned journey, everything that happened in my life, theres always a sermon/followup to explain and to correct me. Isnt it just amazing. I believe god will use me for a much greater purpose, and i will be so happy to answer his calling when the time comes! I will never be a slave to credit and debit, for i have only one true master, and that is jesus christ! ONELOVE,ONEGOD!
im so glad chew enjoyed his time at church today. i can feel the seed in him sprouting, and the time has come for another life to be changed!
I shall take a leap of faith and learn to tithe, because tithing is an indication that we can have self control over our earthly appetites, and it also serves as a reminder that what we should be seeking are the boundless treasures in heaven, and to cling onto earthly possessions. Dear god, please mould me in your ways, let your glory shine in my life.
Friday, October 1, 2010
Sukiyaki DL4 Men
Had a great day today!
Took ftt at ubi and i passed! : D once again, im v v impressed by the lady at the comfortdelgro counter. their customer service is 10/10! on both occasions i went there, they put on a delightful smile on their face, and they were very very patient with the customers. they seem to enjoy talking alot alot, and they knew how to adjust their tone and slang and language when talking to different demographics of people! A skill many people need to learn. if i were the boss of any company, i would definitely poach them over.
went home to watch inter play against werder bremen. somehow i feel that inter's standard dropped so much after benitez took over. they seem to be playing like liv now. but sneijder is performing ever so well! my favourite italian team must win the cup again!
went out with dl4 guys for buffet! supposedly farewell for john and haoyang. had such a great time bonding with everyone else. so good to see everyone letting themselves go loose and enjoying the atmosphere fully. its my first time freezing melted icecream. its quite fun! and its quite cool how they thought of this concept. but the chocolate chips we spam inside makes it so irritating to eat. next time just cook pure ice cream better. put in the mouth dunnid chew liaos. haha. im soo gonna go out with them more next time! oh yeah followup with dom tml. i wonder how it'll go. i just love this life!
hm somehow i cant find haoyang on fb. whats wrong!
Took ftt at ubi and i passed! : D once again, im v v impressed by the lady at the comfortdelgro counter. their customer service is 10/10! on both occasions i went there, they put on a delightful smile on their face, and they were very very patient with the customers. they seem to enjoy talking alot alot, and they knew how to adjust their tone and slang and language when talking to different demographics of people! A skill many people need to learn. if i were the boss of any company, i would definitely poach them over.
went home to watch inter play against werder bremen. somehow i feel that inter's standard dropped so much after benitez took over. they seem to be playing like liv now. but sneijder is performing ever so well! my favourite italian team must win the cup again!
went out with dl4 guys for buffet! supposedly farewell for john and haoyang. had such a great time bonding with everyone else. so good to see everyone letting themselves go loose and enjoying the atmosphere fully. its my first time freezing melted icecream. its quite fun! and its quite cool how they thought of this concept. but the chocolate chips we spam inside makes it so irritating to eat. next time just cook pure ice cream better. put in the mouth dunnid chew liaos. haha. im soo gonna go out with them more next time! oh yeah followup with dom tml. i wonder how it'll go. i just love this life!
hm somehow i cant find haoyang on fb. whats wrong!
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