Stupid head.

Loving people is just so tiring. I cant believe i've been trying to love people for so long already. I love god but i just cant stand myself trying to love people. Im tired. From today onwards, i shall love people i want to love, and not love people i need to love. I shall smile at people i want to smile to, and not smile to people i need to smile too. Having the perfect love from god is enough to sustain this entire life. This is it. i shall seek no more. Nothing more. Nothing more untill a revelation falls on me.

Dear lord, unless you do something real quick, i think im gonna give up. I asked to carry your burden, and wow, im already feeling the weight.. I cant believe how you managed to live through eternity despite of all the imperfections of man. You even died to save us. No words can describe how grateful i am for your blood. Now i know why you are God, because through you all things are possible.

Well.. god, because i love you so much, i shall continue to carry this weight upon my shoulders. To exemplify your glory to the rest of the world.

Wow i cant believe during the past hour i actually thought out a whole load of garbage using this stupidirritatingheadofminewhichneverstopstotakeabreakevenat2ammidnight. Just moments ago, Satan pulled me into darkness, but thankfully, God's light shines! And once again i remind myself, the life i live, i live by faith in the Son of God, who loved me and gave himself for me.